Journal Entry – Monday, 31 July 2017

Meeting up with Mistress was always going to be special. Unfortunately I was once again late and was told my punishment as soon as Mistress got into the car. I had to kneel for two hours (instead of the usual one) and all the time having my cock clamped firmly under the toilet seat. This I did just before I started writing this piece for today. Coming back to my meeting with Mistress, it was a very enjoyable experience. I was so glad that Mistress liked my choice of restaurant. The food was rather good. Mistress and I had a good conversation about our relationship and also shared some things about ourselves. All throughout, I was only allowed to eat when Mistress said so. She discretely mixed some of her saliva into food she put on my plate and ordered me to eat. After the dinner, Mistress took me to a deserted area and made me crawl under her legs like a dog to retreive an empty carton. It was a humiliating outward expression of submission to her. I then sent Mistress home. Mistress Stacy left me a bag of her bra and panties with specific instructions as to how I should hand wash them and return them to her by the end of the week. I am allowed to send Mistress to work tomorrow. First thing in the morning.

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Journal Entry – Sunday, 30 July 2017

Time really goes by quickly. The month is nearly up and the long awaited next meet up with Mistress is tomorrow. Arrangements are in place and the anticipation has been building. It will be a dinner meet up and whatever happens after I can only guess. I expect to be mindfucked and am therefore actually quite fearful of what Mistress will make me do when I am in her presence. At the last meeting, one thing led to another and I found myself simply obeying her every instruction somewhat mindlessly. I yielded almost all control to her. I will of course share some after the event details if Mistress permits me. 

Journal Entry – Saturday, 29 July 2017

The connection with Mistress is strengthening. I can feel it. I hope that the bond continues to develop so that one day, Mistress will truely be all that matters to me. I really want to reach that state. The pragmatist in me says we shall see. Despite the challenges that I have had to face and the punishments that Mistress has put me through so far, I am still very much devoted to her. I am always longing for Mistress to be part of my every day life. Whatever I do, I would imagine what if she was there to be part of it. Today was no different. While I had a packed day, Mistress was always on my mind and in my heart. 

Journal Entry – Friday, 28 July 2017

I saw the most recent post on Mistress’ Instagram account ans thought it would be something I can do for Mistress. I mentioned it to Mistress in a regular email exchange that it might be possible for me to drive her to work if she would allow me the privilege and to my utter amazement she agreed. I am so grateful to have been granted this privilege. Mistress still has to decide on details of the arrangement but I am already looking to the first assignment. Thank you Mistress.

Journal Entry – Thursday, 27 July 2017

Now that I know I am going to see Mistress Stacy on Monday, everything else is relatively meaningless and I just wish for time to move on swiftly. The thought of being able to be in her presence again just fills me with anticipation. As always, I must prepare myself well even though I know I can never be worthy enough to be in her presence.

Journal Entry – Wednesday, 26 July 2017

Mistress disclosed the punishment she has planned for me next week. I will narrate it here after the event but what I can say is that she appears to be leaning towards domesticating me. I am excited at the plans she has for me. I will accept my punishment graciously and wholeheartedly, knowing that it will be another small step towards total submission to her. She has given me very specific instructions about our meeting next week. I am looking forward to it. 

Journal Entry – Tuesday, 25 July 2017

Mistress gave me an opportunity to drive her today. It was totally out of the blue. Very unexpected. Unfortunately I was not able to take the opportunity to serve her because of work commitments. She came back with an offer to meet in a different context next week. She would see me, to deliver my punishment for not being able to serve her regularly enough. Mistress mentioned that it would be both a punishment and a reward. I am already very excited and at the same time curious to find out what it is. Whatever it is, I will have to wait patiently. I wait with mixed emotions, with some fear as well as anticipation. It is impossible to even guess what Mistress has in store for me.