Mistress suggested once that I should be made to wear a cock cage to keep me from masturbation or any sexual activity without her permission. I was very concerned that the buldge in my pants would be very noticable. I was just thinking that the problem is the same now where I go “commando” as part of my punishment. I guess the difference is that it will be a lot easier to explain myself. On a separate note, Mistress sent me the most amazing photograph of her beautiful feet first thing this morning. When I saw the photograph, I was still half asleep and thought that I was in a dream.
Now that I know I am going to see Mistress Stacy on Monday, everything else is relatively meaningless and I just wish for time to move on swiftly. The thought of being able to be in her presence again just fills me with anticipation. As always, I must prepare myself well even though I know I can never be worthy enough to be in her presence.
Mistress gave me an opportunity to drive her today. It was totally out of the blue. Very unexpected. Unfortunately I was not able to take the opportunity to serve her because of work commitments. She came back with an offer to meet in a different context next week. She would see me, to deliver my punishment for not being able to serve her regularly enough. Mistress mentioned that it would be both a punishment and a reward. I am already very excited and at the same time curious to find out what it is. Whatever it is, I will have to wait patiently. I wait with mixed emotions, with some fear as well as anticipation. It is impossible to even guess what Mistress has in store for me.
Coincidentally after yesterday’s posting, today I ended up at the place where I would usually meet Mistress Stacy. It felt quite different when I am there not for the purpose of seeing Mistress. On a separate note, when I tried to send tribute to Mistress this evening, I was not able to do so. It could have been one of several reasons. I just hope that everything is okay.
Mistress surprised me completely by sending me a photograph of her wearing a pair of panty that I bought for her. In the photograph I could also admire her manicured nails that I sponsored in part. I am so grateful to Mistress for her little gift after another hard day at work. I imagine it would be quite exciting if I could accompany Mistress on a shopping trip, driving her around, carrying her shopping, giving her feedback on her purchases and maybe even helping her try on shoes. Mistress allowed me to carry her bag on at least two occassions in the past and the feeling as I remember it was quite special. I was also proud to be seen trailing Mistress in public with her bag.
Mistress Stacy is not like other findoms who rinse their followers completely dry before leaving them broken. Some of the findoms might not even be real, or the person in the other end might actually be a male. Mistress is strict and demanding but she cares for the financial well being of her slaves. She guides me along a challenging narrow path towards complete submission. I hope that Mistress will be patient as I develop as her slave. I constantly challenge myself to find ways to better provide for Mistress financially. I wonder if one day I will willingly turn over my entire month’s wage to Mistress. It is one of those thoughts that scares and excites in equal measures.
When I woke up this morning. I saw the message from Mistress in my inbox. I expected to be chided for failing to perform the tasks she set for me over the weekend. Instead, in her reply, she expressed understanding and she only told me to get the task done as soon as possible. This is yet another example of why I still serve at her side. She is a real person who can understand the challenges her slaves face in their daily lives. I have been overwhelmed by projects at work recently and have not been able to devote as much time to Mistress as I would have liked to. Mistress Stacy is truly amazing for so many reasons. I love her as my owner so deeply.