Journal Entry – Monday, 11 September 2017

Mistress reminded me that I am not allowed to cum until end February next year and that it was my choice at that time to accept this ordeal rather than pay a tribute as a punishment for something that I did wrong. If I needed to cum I would have to pay a cum tax of the number of months left of my punishment multiplied by 300. This could potentially set me back financially by quite a lot. Tomorrow I will see Mistress again. I will have to prepare myself mentally. She has also given me instructions to do a few things before meeting her tomorrow.


Journal Entry – Saturday, 26 August 2017

The goal of a submissive is to yield completely to his Mistress. The traditional way of course is by punishment and torture, which is also used in other fields for example to elicit information from a person. The torturer inflicts disproportionate amount of physical and psychological pain to break the person such that the person will be so naturally fearful of the torturer that he would be cooperative or obedient. As widely reported, the person usually suffers from severe psychological trauma and may never recover from it. In the BDSM space, there are Mistresses who use such extreme methods to break a male. There are many videos online documenting such techniques.

However, it is also possible to take the soft touch to break a male submissive. The Mistress uses either psychological manipulation or uses his desires, weaknesses and fetishes to take control of him and eventually breaks him. Arguably this soft approach is equally effective. Mistress can offer the slave the ownership of an intimate item of clothing, as seen on Mistress Stacy’s Instagram page where a male was bidding for her bra. Once in his possession, the item becomes the focus of his attention and adoration when Mistress is not present. The slave is therefore constantly reminded of Mistress and what she wants of him.

Yet another method of achieving complete submission is by controlling the orgasms like what Mistress Stacy is doing to myself and all her slaves. I have written before that the longer the slave is denied, the more pliable he becomes.

A related but more extreme form of this is possibly by severe teasing and denial. Arguably by overloading the male senses and sexual desires, the male’s spirit can be broken. Mistress Stacy has already indicated a willingness to use me as a guinea pig. To begin with, she want to see if it is possible to make me cum without touching my cock at all. If this is successful, then repeatedly subjecting me to such treatment is likely to break me completely. Such methods might have other adverse side effects such as destroying the slaves libido but when it comes to that stage, he may already be mindlessly obedient.

Journal Entry – Friday, 25 August 2017

I am not a bit tempted even when surrounded by gorgeous women the last few days because I am not allowed to without Mistress Stacy’s permission and none of them can ever compare to Mistress. Mistress is beautiful, enticing, and she demands total devotion from her slaves. She can sense if I am not fully devoted to her and I have no desire to find out the consequences of that.

The facinating thing about domination and submission is that even a punishment can be something that a slave gets turned on by. Mistress realises this and which is why she frequently denies her slaves as a means of punishment. Chastity for example is a very powerful tool, because once a male is denied sufficiently, he would be pliable and very obedient.

Journal Entry – Tuesday, 8 August 2017

Mistress suggested once that I should be made to wear a cock cage to keep me from masturbation or any sexual activity without her permission. I was very concerned that the buldge in my pants would be very noticable. I was just thinking that the problem is the same now where I go “commando” as part of my punishment. I guess the difference is that it will be a lot easier to explain myself. On a separate note, Mistress sent me the most amazing photograph of her beautiful feet first thing this morning. When I saw the photograph, I was still half asleep and thought that I was in a dream. 

Journal Entry – Tuesday, 11 July 2017

It is quite special to know that there are people following this blog. Two in fact. I hope Mistress will be pleased with this humble progress I have made. I shall have to do even more so that more people will know her name. I have not been allowed to cum for several weeks now and I readily offer this period of chastity to Mistress. Self discipline is absolutely crucial in serving Mistress.

Journal Entry – Saturday, 8 July 2017

One major element of reprogramming or recondition is all about making someone do something that is not what he is accustomed to until it becomes second nature to the person. This includes chastity, sending tribute and going around with precum smeared on his face. I would say this is a subset of the larger evolutionary process. Once the slave starts accepting something as part of his servitude to Mistress, then he will be more willing to do it, and maybe even enjoy it in the process.

Journal Entry – Tuesday, 4 July 2017

Today is Independence Day but ironically I yielded even more control to Mistress Stacy today. As punishment for the delay in writing up my slave contract, I was allowed to either pay $100 or not cum one month for each day of delay. Considering my financial circumstances, I had no choice but to agree to the chastity arrangement for another nine months. I am sure it will not be long before I am a quivering wreck begging Mistress to allow me relief. Only a matter of time.