Journal Entry – Saturday, 26 August 2017

The goal of a submissive is to yield completely to his Mistress. The traditional way of course is by punishment and torture, which is also used in other fields for example to elicit information from a person. The torturer inflicts disproportionate amount of physical and psychological pain to break the person such that the person will be so naturally fearful of the torturer that he would be cooperative or obedient. As widely reported, the person usually suffers from severe psychological trauma and may never recover from it. In the BDSM space, there are Mistresses who use such extreme methods to break a male. There are many videos online documenting such techniques.

However, it is also possible to take the soft touch to break a male submissive. The Mistress uses either psychological manipulation or uses his desires, weaknesses and fetishes to take control of him and eventually breaks him. Arguably this soft approach is equally effective. Mistress can offer the slave the ownership of an intimate item of clothing, as seen on Mistress Stacy’s Instagram page where a male was bidding for her bra. Once in his possession, the item becomes the focus of his attention and adoration when Mistress is not present. The slave is therefore constantly reminded of Mistress and what she wants of him.

Yet another method of achieving complete submission is by controlling the orgasms like what Mistress Stacy is doing to myself and all her slaves. I have written before that the longer the slave is denied, the more pliable he becomes.

A related but more extreme form of this is possibly by severe teasing and denial. Arguably by overloading the male senses and sexual desires, the male’s spirit can be broken. Mistress Stacy has already indicated a willingness to use me as a guinea pig. To begin with, she want to see if it is possible to make me cum without touching my cock at all. If this is successful, then repeatedly subjecting me to such treatment is likely to break me completely. Such methods might have other adverse side effects such as destroying the slaves libido but when it comes to that stage, he may already be mindlessly obedient.


Journal Entry – Friday, 11 August 2017

I had some doubts creep into my mind today. I had to ask myself whether my submissiveness is driven by sexual desire or am I submissive in nature as I thought myself to be. It could also be a combination of both since I am sure I will still want to continue serving Mistress Stacy if she stopped using my sexual desires and fetishes to control me. Using my desires to manipulate me and train me is a means to an end, perhaps the clearest path towards achieving absolute obedience. Alternatives would be for example extreme physical punishment to break me. In the end, the answer is probably not as important but it is still interesting to discover more about myself.